Moving On 10/30/XXXX
I have no idea what’s happened to Lotuss. I’ve all but given up on him. I’ve exhausted every avenue trying to find him, but to no avail. I finally resigned myself to the fact that he’s truly gone.
I visited the office of Planetary Co-unions and filled out the necessary paper work required to officially disband our union to each other. When I got to the question asking for cause, I simply placed “KIA” (killed in action). No questions where asked to this reason. I suppose because of this war, it’s an appropriate response and others before me have had to write similar answers.
I miss him terribly…there is a place in my heart that continues to grow, a hole of sorts, for every love I’ve lost due to this karking war! I felt it had started to heal with Lotuss. I mean it was he who found me when I was lost and confused. It was Lotuss whom I adventured with, fell in love with… and eventually married. It was he that made the hole in my heart from the loss of Maxell Snow start to fade.
Mara Jade once told me, “You can never know how the future will unfold for you, sometimes you catch glimpse of it in dreams, sometimes feel it in your soul, but you can never predict how it will come, because the future is always in motion, ever changing, like the swirls found in a slow running river. Every heart beat you have, has the potential to change the future”.
I think about what she said, and I wonder if I had made a mistake following my vision to become a Jedi. Please don’t misunderstand me; I learned a lot from Mara in the ways of the force, but look at me now! A dancer! Irking out a living in some of the worse and most run down establishments in the galaxy.
Ah well, all I can say is I haven’t had much time since returning to dance to dwell much on my love or military problems. At the urge of some of the girls I dance with and musicians that play I have started auditioning at the theaters in Mos Eisly and Theed.
I have made the cut for the show a couple of times with mixed results, but I plan to continue to try out. I’ve been told if I make the big show I’ll receive a prize of some sort.
So until I get my prize, I will continue to help the people in need that come into these dark dank places called cantina and do my best to keep them all entertained.
I visited the office of Planetary Co-unions and filled out the necessary paper work required to officially disband our union to each other. When I got to the question asking for cause, I simply placed “KIA” (killed in action). No questions where asked to this reason. I suppose because of this war, it’s an appropriate response and others before me have had to write similar answers.
I miss him terribly…there is a place in my heart that continues to grow, a hole of sorts, for every love I’ve lost due to this karking war! I felt it had started to heal with Lotuss. I mean it was he who found me when I was lost and confused. It was Lotuss whom I adventured with, fell in love with… and eventually married. It was he that made the hole in my heart from the loss of Maxell Snow start to fade.
Mara Jade once told me, “You can never know how the future will unfold for you, sometimes you catch glimpse of it in dreams, sometimes feel it in your soul, but you can never predict how it will come, because the future is always in motion, ever changing, like the swirls found in a slow running river. Every heart beat you have, has the potential to change the future”.
I think about what she said, and I wonder if I had made a mistake following my vision to become a Jedi. Please don’t misunderstand me; I learned a lot from Mara in the ways of the force, but look at me now! A dancer! Irking out a living in some of the worse and most run down establishments in the galaxy.
Ah well, all I can say is I haven’t had much time since returning to dance to dwell much on my love or military problems. At the urge of some of the girls I dance with and musicians that play I have started auditioning at the theaters in Mos Eisly and Theed.
I have made the cut for the show a couple of times with mixed results, but I plan to continue to try out. I’ve been told if I make the big show I’ll receive a prize of some sort.
So until I get my prize, I will continue to help the people in need that come into these dark dank places called cantina and do my best to keep them all entertained.
posted by Ebe Lightcloud at 6:59 AM
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